Wash It Away

“We are part of something special. It’s a crack in time-a wrinkle. Fallen from the nest, young eagle. I will pull my feathers out, stay humble. Uncle Mana taught us like an elder, took asunder older brother, he said this is powerful country, we felt like we were returning to our land rebels, and the shepherds in the sea. Takers are taking what the leavers will leave so grieve me the black prince cicada- such a loud voice for a tiny creature. Teach me to let go of all of my pain. I do forgive, I don’t forget these things.

We burn the bluegum for a safe passageway, drink of the earth, smoke of the dirt and my warpaint was red ochre clay. Our prayers igniting, cast out into the shire, and the song of our struggle came straight from the fire. It goes:

Holy, holy grandmother, we sing! Wash us clean of our pain and suffering. Give us strength for our new beginnings. From my deepest grace I sing- wash away, it will wash away.

In my dreams a whirling aboriginal man gave me your hat and your past in one hand. He said, you’ve come to be with rainbow serpent, red hands, red land, red worship- just then I heard bush mama crying in the chasms for the stolen generation and the children who haven’t come home, come home stay home.

My bullets are my words and my words are my weapons, so chain me to the pipeline for our rivers and mountains we sing!

Today’s a good day for my ego to die. Spirit live on in my heart, in my body, my mind. Then sister crow came with the murder that day, so he tattooed the bird nation onto our faces. She said we sing to let go of all of our pain. We dance the story to remember when things changed

We danced the ghost dance in two separate countries to this old song so familiar to memory. The road will teach you how to love and let go. It can be lonely but it’s the only thing that we’ve ever known. Our mommas told us- let go of jealousy. And for vagabonds and vagrants, that won’t come so easy. We’ve come from nothing.

I traveled halfway across the country and back only to find love undefined and I’m OK with that cause I’m gonna be a guardian, be a man among men.

Be my friend. Teach me to love you in a different way. Same cuts, same guts, same crazy. It’ll wash away, it will wash away- lift them up.”

This song speaks for itself. Nahko Bear is truly spreading medicine throughout humanity. Giving us hope and walking with us in our quest for ascending beyond our limitations.


“Muddy water is…

“Muddy water is best cleared by leaving it alone.”
Alan Wilson Watts

With struggle, our minds work over time. We search for solutions or drown in our emotions and abuse our imagination with negative outcomes or tantalizing thoughts. Nothing seems adequate. The struggle is still there. Action tends to build up more and more difficulties when we take it and ignore the situation at hand. What are we to do? One could go mad. These are the muddy waters we wade through. The more we kick the more the dirt is spread around us, covering every inch of our body, getting in our hair and mouth. If we kick too long, we can exhaust ourselves and drown. The mud and water filling our lungs. We must crawl out. We must get out of the muddy water and we must observe. If we remove ourselves from the struggle, and we observe it, and we wait- eventually the mud will settle to the bottom and the water will become clear. The solution will make itself known. Our patience and careful intimate study of the very water we were fighting in is what brought about the answers. Not trying to force our way into action or solutions. So with difficulty, leave it alone. Meditate on it. Observe it. Act when the answer is clear.

Death & unity

Death is a troubling subject for most. It signifies an end. It signifies a complete end, with no more hope in sight. Death is permanent. It can be scary. It can be utterly sad.

These are things we are all aware of, but in my own mind, I see things a little differently. Death, is an end, but it is also a beginning. It brings about change. Death is the ultimate change. It can be troubling, but it is also intriguing. Completion for the ego of the being involved can be sad. But I see hope in sight. I see permanence through memories and I see permanence of the soul. The thought of losing our ego or our individual self can be scary. But that permanence in the collective unconscious is still there, and though we see our ego as important, it is not going to last forever, nor should it. It’s just like everything else in life- it is created, it molds itself and lives, and then it dies. But that soul behind the ego, that divine life embodied inside of it, goes on. It is brought back to the source and then shifted towards another life, whether on this planet or another. The energy that soul embodies will always be connected with the other energies it touched. Though temporary, always together. The great contradiction that hides behind all truths.

The ego cries out in misery over the death of a loved one. The soul cries out in joy for its new journey and new beginning- for their birth. We cannot completely separate from our ego while embodying this physical form. That is not the point. The point is to enjoy our individuality, and enjoy the great variety of life, and realize that we’re all connected despite how different we may be. We are not an island. We are all, meshed together, a universe. Life. Light manifested in the great abyss. We are beautiful. One day everyone will realize how perfect we truly are. And that we can manifest our own paradise together. We are all divine.

“Know that peop…

“Know that people are doing the best they can from their level of awareness. Accept people for who they are and always be ready to forgive.”
-Deepak Chopra

Another great reminder to those on a spiritual journey.

I often get frustrated with humanity. The incessant judgement, the shallow conversations, and the unneeded cruelness. The way that people talk to and about each other. I am even a part of this, I will admit. But I do try. The fact is- everyone is on a different level of awareness. The key to compassion through frustration and annoyance is to understand that. Forgive easily- do not let ego hold you back from loving. I have a tendency to want to cut those out of my life that bring negativity. But the truth is, everyone is going to bring it at some point because it is your own self reacting to it. Forgive them for evoking it, forgive yourself for providing the mirror, and move on from it. There are lessons to learn from everyone and that is from every level or awareness, not just the one you are on or ones seemingly higher than yours. Accept and love.

I am going to put this into action immediately: to be more tolerant and understanding and loving.

“This being hum…

“This being human is a guest house. Every morning is a new arrival. A joy, a depression, a meanness, some momentary awareness comes as an unexpected visitor…Welcome and entertain them all. Treat each guest honorably. The dark thought, the shame, the malice, meet them at the door laughing, and invite them in. Be grateful for whoever comes, because each has been sent as a guide from beyond.”
— Jalāl ad-Dīn Muhammad Rūmī

I must remind myself often of this truth. Emotions do not define who we are. They are guides, teachers, tricksters! They cannot always be trusted. They refuse to be ignored. They need to be felt, or else, they will linger in the depths you shut them inside until they bubble back up to the surface and visit you again. You must face them. Rejecting them or hiding them is rejecting your inner guide. You do not have to justify them. Nor do you have to justify yourself by feeling them unnecessarily. Take it easy. Love every opportunity to learn about yourself. Love yourself. You are okay and everything is alright, always. Let it go, let it come, let it go again. This is the beauty of awareness!