Death & unity

Death is a troubling subject for most. It signifies an end. It signifies a complete end, with no more hope in sight. Death is permanent. It can be scary. It can be utterly sad.

These are things we are all aware of, but in my own mind, I see things a little differently. Death, is an end, but it is also a beginning. It brings about change. Death is the ultimate change. It can be troubling, but it is also intriguing. Completion for the ego of the being involved can be sad. But I see hope in sight. I see permanence through memories and I see permanence of the soul. The thought of losing our ego or our individual self can be scary. But that permanence in the collective unconscious is still there, and though we see our ego as important, it is not going to last forever, nor should it. It’s just like everything else in life- it is created, it molds itself and lives, and then it dies. But that soul behind the ego, that divine life embodied inside of it, goes on. It is brought back to the source and then shifted towards another life, whether on this planet or another. The energy that soul embodies will always be connected with the other energies it touched. Though temporary, always together. The great contradiction that hides behind all truths.

The ego cries out in misery over the death of a loved one. The soul cries out in joy for its new journey and new beginning- for their birth. We cannot completely separate from our ego while embodying this physical form. That is not the point. The point is to enjoy our individuality, and enjoy the great variety of life, and realize that we’re all connected despite how different we may be. We are not an island. We are all, meshed together, a universe. Life. Light manifested in the great abyss. We are beautiful. One day everyone will realize how perfect we truly are. And that we can manifest our own paradise together. We are all divine.

“Know that peop…

“Know that people are doing the best they can from their level of awareness. Accept people for who they are and always be ready to forgive.”
-Deepak Chopra

Another great reminder to those on a spiritual journey.

I often get frustrated with humanity. The incessant judgement, the shallow conversations, and the unneeded cruelness. The way that people talk to and about each other. I am even a part of this, I will admit. But I do try. The fact is- everyone is on a different level of awareness. The key to compassion through frustration and annoyance is to understand that. Forgive easily- do not let ego hold you back from loving. I have a tendency to want to cut those out of my life that bring negativity. But the truth is, everyone is going to bring it at some point because it is your own self reacting to it. Forgive them for evoking it, forgive yourself for providing the mirror, and move on from it. There are lessons to learn from everyone and that is from every level or awareness, not just the one you are on or ones seemingly higher than yours. Accept and love.

I am going to put this into action immediately: to be more tolerant and understanding and loving.


Scalp me and look inside my head and try and find the reason I was made the way I was. There’s a selflessness and a selfishness and everywhere in between. Peel them away, toss them away, I can’t use this system anymore. I’m jumping off the rails. Closing my eyes. Using my hands to feel around a bit. Being in awe. Discovering how it was to view the world for the first time.

If you’re scared of who I am, you’re lying to yourself. If you’re scared of who you are, you’re also lying to yourself. You are beauty. We are beauty.

“This being hum…

“This being human is a guest house. Every morning is a new arrival. A joy, a depression, a meanness, some momentary awareness comes as an unexpected visitor…Welcome and entertain them all. Treat each guest honorably. The dark thought, the shame, the malice, meet them at the door laughing, and invite them in. Be grateful for whoever comes, because each has been sent as a guide from beyond.”
— Jalāl ad-Dīn Muhammad Rūmī

I must remind myself often of this truth. Emotions do not define who we are. They are guides, teachers, tricksters! They cannot always be trusted. They refuse to be ignored. They need to be felt, or else, they will linger in the depths you shut them inside until they bubble back up to the surface and visit you again. You must face them. Rejecting them or hiding them is rejecting your inner guide. You do not have to justify them. Nor do you have to justify yourself by feeling them unnecessarily. Take it easy. Love every opportunity to learn about yourself. Love yourself. You are okay and everything is alright, always. Let it go, let it come, let it go again. This is the beauty of awareness!

“Oh soul. You w…

“Oh soul. You worry too much. You have seen your own strength. You have seen your own beauty. You have seen your golden wings. Of anything less, why do you worry? You are, in truth, the soul of the soul of the soul.”
— Rumi

I self-talk like this all the time. Rumi taught me many years ago of this method. To ask myself questions, answer them with love. To recognize my efforts instead of putting myself down. To admit to my own beauty inside my soul. To remind myself that I am the divine and shouldn’t be talked to any other way than with respect. I hurt myself too often with self-judgement and harsh words. It’s easy to forget that how we talk to ourselves is how we feel about and see ourselves. If it’s all negative, it doesn’t help promote change which is what we are trying to get ourselves to do in the first place. Instead of thinking ‘I am a failure, I am lazy, I am weird, I am crazy’, I must think ‘I can try again, I can allow myself to rest, I am unique, I am complex and imaginative’. Positive self talk only. No more putting myself down. Try it, my friends. It will do wonders for your self esteem and motivation and peace inside your heart.

1.4.14 e

1.4.14 e

This is a picture of my beloved friend Kelsey and me sitting on the lonely steps leading up to a nonexistent house. This house had collapsed many years before and most of the debris was taken away save a few bricks, some glass, parts of the roof, and these stairs.
It was quite the experience to walk up them into the woods that now cover where their home used to be. Crunching on glass that must have been windows and pushing through spiderwebs that spiders now call their home. The physical remnants of the past hit somewhere deep inside of me. I could almost feel the energy that was shared in that spot. Families growing and changing together. People living and working. Hearts loving and sharing. All reduced to simple steps, and a stranger greeting them with the utmost respect and devotion they deserve.