It’s not the feelings that should sway me, but they do. It’s not the intellect that should sway me, but, it does. It’s spontaneity and spirit combined, fear and insecurity sprinkled in, dirtying the lines of where my actions come from. Where the thoughts crash against the physical and where they fizzle out before even reaching a single nerve. There’s no predicting the outcomes and so, in knowing this, I should ignore all the previous and act through nothing but love. I have come to this conclusion many times and yet my ego, my human nature and my intense emotions, get the final say. I will never stop striving for what I know is right. And in the mean time, I will forgive myself endlessly for being all too human.